Today its 1st of April 2004...Peoples will be playing April Fool in all over the world. And this was the Same day on 1st of April 2003, I seen my wife first time in presence(In Reality,F2F) ...We were talking with eachother from 1999-2000 through net but on 1st april 2003 was the date she was before my eyes in real. i took her to my home where we got married with the will of my Parents & family. And After marrying me she returned back to The States for my paper work done. It has passed one year now, still no positive sign for me. But she is taking a negative Effect of what ever is going on by This Long Separation and Government Probs etc. She is still extremely sick now a days. i dont know if she lives or die because she sent me a horrible letter some days before...It Looks That Life played April Fool with us both. Here goes her letter to me.
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Assalam o Alaikum,

Hello my darling...I have missed you so damn bad.I got the Mri results today...Honey they are not good not good at all . I wish you all the happiness in the world you know this don't you? I never ment to hurt you ever. You are my heart the very air i breath ..I have missed you so bad my darling more than u will ever know. My heart breaks knowing what I have to tell you. It will take a miracle for me to survive what is going on with me now. Nothing short of one will keep me a live much longer it seems. The swelling on my skull...is actually my brain ...the prophyria is attacking my body and my central nervous system and has eaten away the membrane that is around it partially so in truth it is my brain i massage when i rub it ...I guess it is safe to say my love i am dying. or by the time u read this maybe gone ...who knows, The swelling is clear across my head now in just a couple of weeks time. There is no one besides ALLAH that can stop it now. The disease is well and truly taken over ...it seems, I do not wish you to be sad ...honey be glad ok I am no longer in pain. and have been released from a life that is torture to me. So rejoice and be glad i have moved on to a higher realm I pray. I love you so very much my husband do not forget me but be happy at my release ok.. INSHALLAH you will be happy in life someday and will think of me with fond memories. Brief our moments were together but you will always hold my heart you have no idea how much you were and are loved by me. We will meet again don't worry. And i will always be with u if u remember me with love and kindness. Hold me close in your heart my love and be good to yourself. And Always Remember I loved YOU and Love you always. I had moments of happiness with u that are with me forever in my mind in my heart and soul. I shall find you again . Know always there has not been a day or many minutes i did not think of you even as they told me ..I thought how the hell am i going to tell him..meaning you my love. I will write you some poems and send them here and there are some that I have already written i will send ...I LOVE YOU ZAMIR. KNOW THIS I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. More than you ever knew . Take care of yourself my love and remember I am watching you ... So do not dissappoint me and do well with yourself. Once again you are my heart and soul I shall find you again someday. I love you my husband.
Always and Forever
Your Wife
Musarrat Anjum
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